Present is Present

Caution: I do not know what is to live in present. I just want to express my thoughts to support the views of enlightened being of living in 'present'. It is only a possibility, not a certainty.

All living things have one common thing. Birth and death ,our initial and final state, between it there is process which we call life. Life is process of change, a change to welcome the death, the ultimate state. If there is something certain in life that is death. Time creates illusion. We can live only in present. So only present is reality. Past and future do not exist. But most of our actions are motivated by past and inspired by future. We forget present. The remembrance of past and dream of future clouds the present. Therefore we live life virtually. Perhaps this may be reason why gurdijeff says that people lives their whole life in sleep. But it is not easy either to be live in present and perhaps one who learns is known as enlightened. A fictitious happiness cannot content us and perhaps this may be a reason why we never get contentment. From centuries we are told, live in present, live with awareness. Just by living completely in present, the distance of your birth and death vanishes. Birth, death and present coincide at one point. For a man living in present, it does not matter whether he dies today or will die after 20 years, because today and after 20 years he will be in present. He still has same being, filling him a sensation of his existence at that moment. He conquers the fear of the death and get detached from the attachment of past. When we are hungry, we eat at that time. One cannot free from hunger by thinking about food in past or desiring about food in future. Even hunger cannot, how one can get peace, enjoyment, thinking about the past and future. Even if he gets it, it is virtual and psychological.
Desires are product of future. Attachments are the product of past. This is why desires and attachment are claimed as reason of all distress. One cannot free from desires and attachment until he lives in present. So someone has well said,” past is history, future is mystery, present is gift that’s why we call it as present.”

UTSAVA

My belief has wandered from Asharam Bapu to osho, retreating many places like Gaytri parivar and ISKCON. I feel fortunate to have experience of all and when someone is catering just in 500 rs why should I not increase the quantity of my experience. So as soon as I was asked about the UTSAVA event in art of living, I accepted. The first thing which I feel good was the balanced participation of boys and girls. At least it was not barren like ISKCON where number of males over females still manifests the negligence of one of the essential part of society. I do not know whether it is negligence of females or result of their philosophical and non-practical attitude. But whatever is the reason, spiritualism is beyond the physical appearances and if it is not, then there must be same male chauvinist attitude which were in the ancient tradition, devised by man. I was welcome with a tilak on my head and entered one of the 4 zone classified for equal distribution of crowd. One young person, clad in white kurta payjama appeared with a mike and addressed with his sweet, soft voice. Then we are told to do surya namakar. He assured that if you do 40 namaskar then no one can touch you (but still I am puzzled). People approved through thundering claps. Somehow I managed myself to belief without asking any proof and with great enthusiasm I participated. I did pranayam and then the sudarshan kriya. Really I felt a vibration throughout my body. It was fascinating for me to feel the unusual vibration in a rhythmic sense. I was feeling a union of my tongue, hands, and legs as they had become the part of energy surrounding my body. I do not know whether it was some extraordinary happening (as they claimed) or an ordinary (nonsignificant) (as critics claimed) sensation but whatever it was, I was relaxed. Thoughts were settled and focus was cleared. I bought one T-shirt advertising the global spiritualism in the front and ‘smile’ on the back. I liked it and prefer it to continue. But their philosophy about mind control and clinging to someone still contradicts my own and gives me a chance to get a new experience.

Our Shadows

Every day is new day. A new day to follow your dreams, a new day to take resolution, a commitment to be happy. Whatever will happen to me, nothing will tear my happiness. This should be an attitude towards our life. No one can snatch your happiness from you because this is nature of your being. But how you are going to remember this. For this prayer are devised, meditation is developed, to be prepare for the day, to conquer the obstacles and difficulties of the life. There is a story. Once there was a crow. He was very hungry. But there was nothing to eat. Just few meters away there was a river. When his every trick failed to get food he thought why I should not catch a fish? He flew above the river, looked deep into the water. As he was about to hunt a fish, he saw his own shadow and thought that someone is coming to fight. He gets frightened and trembled and fell in the river. This is what happens to us. We are so equipped with inner – fight that we forget our goal, our dreams. In reality there is nothing to fight. Only requirement is to recognize it as a shadow. Our shadow exists only in the absence of light. Light appears; Shadow disappears. This is why Mahavira and Buddha talks about awareness. In the light of awareness, the shadow of inner fight vanishes.

Life is peace

One of my friends is religious type. He wants perfection and disdains the sense of competition. One day when the result of end semester was going to out. I saw him in the VT (Vishwanath Temple). With a great silence and admiration of the beauty that surrounds the VT, he prayed to the lord Siva “Oh lord! Please give me good grades.” But he is brilliant too. How god will understand what good is? So again he prayed”, oh my lord, please give me as good grades as all the good students use to have.” This is what most of so called person in this world are doing. They want peace and harmony in their life. They want this peace to be derived by the struggle. The struggle never ceases to stop because how much one attains he always feel some emptiness in their life. Struggle is like a moving rope, binded around our neck. To cope with it we have to move along with the rope. The moment we stop, we are choked. “Life is a struggle. “This statement seems rational because as rope of struggle is moving, in the same way, we see our life is moving. We were child. Now we are young and in future we will be old. Our relationships, our priorities and our preferences are moving. Both life and struggle have one similarity that both are moving. But whatever we are observing is very superficial, materialistic. There is something that is constant which our undefined being is. There is still something in you whom make you feel that your body, your eyes; your heart is always yours. Whatever time it will be, you can feel your individuality. If I am writing here, there is something constant in me and with that reference I am realizing the movement. You can say that to realize the movement one can have a moving reference but again for realizing that reference is moving you should have a constant reference. So ultimately something is constant in you. Constant can never be originated and can never be destroyed because they are not varying and origination and destructions is still a variation. So I feel this constant in you is your soul (As described in GITA by Krishna). Peace is constant. If you have ever realized the momentary peace, you cannot distinguish the nature of peace you cannot quantify the sense of peace like more peace and less peace and if we do then in the first case we are ignorant about the peace and in the second case our peace is not peace it is repressed struggle for peace. Buddha and Mahavira had cut the rope of struggle by the knife of awareness. One who make reference to the constant (Satya -chita- Ananda). For them life is not struggle. It is peace.

Abstraction of knowledge

Science means purified knowledge. But what about the process that converts the raw knowledge into purified form and who is the authority to claim the distinction of raw and pure. It is we that try to align the knowledge in our dimension. This is our projection. And projections are virtual. So there is abstraction. This is same as to claim an object’s length by its shadow. Whole day the length of shadow is varying. We need to know the position of sun for actual length. Your sun is in you. We need to acknowledge it. I was puzzled and perhaps all will be, when they will think about the Lao tzu statement that knowledge in inexpressible through words. It can only be felt in silence. First thing, here, Lao Tzu is talking about the knowledge we already posses. It is to be remembered only. It cannot be categorized in raw and pure because this knowledge is in the centre of your sun. It has no projection.
When we see a rose. We can feel its beauty. But the same beauty cannot be felt by the description of the beauty of rose. You can have the best description but the synchronization of your inner being with the beauty is not at all possible. No mathematical formulation can quantify the ecstasy and joy of the two lovers. Science is beyond it. Whenever you are happy whole world seems beautiful and when you are unhappy, whole world becomes ugly. This is proof of the fact that everything is your projection. If it is your projection then you have always a distinction what is beautiful and what is ugly. Judging something beautiful still approves that something is ugly. So in GITA Krishna has announced to be equal in happiness and unhappiness. This simply reflects to be meditated to your inner consciousness, your inner sun. How can be a projection of an object can be made if the object is in the centre of the sun? Then what ever you view will be bliss. No one can categorize it. It will have no opposites. This is what our scripture say YOGA (samatvam yogam uchayte). But here also word ‘YOGA’ is an abstraction of the feeling, the bliss.

MAN OF CHILDHOOD

When his eyes are gleaming and bright,

For him, to be happy is birth right.

A tiny leaf resembles him an amazing creation,

Every natural action teaches a lesson.

He does not know what is happiness or unhappiness,

What is to be silent and what is to be in race.

For him, the noise of nature is universal music,

He never judge who is down, who is at the peak.

He never thinks what is to win, what is to loose,

For him, to strive for the top is chasing a wild goose.

He is real to life, not an actor,

He is free, nothing can bind his character.

In spite of being fifty, his heart is of five,

In spite of being looser, he is real player of life.

One who loves to do and never does because he should,

My friend! He is the man of childhood.

Crying eyes

Have you ever seen the crying eyes

A speechless mouth of moaning size

A body hided by torn cloths

And legs that tremble to advance

Her watery eyes are searching someone

Her mute prayer is trying to awake everyone

Her thin hands are not able to lift the bowl

which she holds and trying it not to fall

Her eyes are moving more than her legs

Her heart speaks more than her mouth when she begs

She does not know why and how she is here

Why she is crying, while others cheer

We are moving, ignoring that she laments

At every temple, every corner, at every moment

BOOKS AND HAPPINESS

Why divine books are needed when we can know everything that makes us to realize happiness. It should be noticed that I m calling the books divine. Every book is not divine Often we forget ourselves in midst to our desires, competition and fame that books prove to be light torch in the ocean. They give us chance to mirror ourselves. Actually books are effect. When some thing deeper in consciousness happen the realization of a man comes into book and we want to get the realization, meet the creation by reading book which is not logically possible to create the same aura of consciousness because what we are getting is result and by seeing the result we can not set our path to destination. But this result may some how be able to inspire us to choose our own unique path to our destination. We, the people, never get satisfied by what we own today. We are driven by our outer being not by our inner being. We enjoy when some one respect us. Therefore by getting respect we have to be superior and for superiority our desire increases and increases and then there is gigantic war between desires which creates gloom every

here. Generally we have problem that we know that if we lay down this desire, this competition we will be happy. But we are not able to understand ourselves that what I am thinking is an illusion. We just want to forget us in illusion. So momentarily we have n effect of reality but again we fall into illusory world and begin to realize happiness in every thing which we don’t belong and our effort begins to bloom due to the gloom of our heart. Every time we see the people who are affluent, have more materialistic power and glamour and recognition. We try to align ourselves accordingly. But every one is unique. This is the starting of your abashment.

Self-awareness

Think, and link yourself to you,

Feel your heart when ever you view ,

The struggle that is going within you,

You will forget your pain , i promise to you.

Self awareness is an unique attribute which discriminates a man from a animal. We can think, what we are thinking. we are able to project ourselves in the corner of our room and can watch every movement at every moment. awareness produces juices of happiness even from the fruits of sorrows. it transforms even hell to heaven.Our ancient philosophies say that our action should be judged by our conciousness. Actually if we are aware(means we are witnessing) when ever our negative emotions (envy, anger, lust, show off etc.) try to get over , it vanishes.the power of self awareness is unlimited. i think god too is the product of awareness. Awareness is meditation. awareness is greatest medication and for cultivating it there is only one remedy BE AWARE.

Morning to mourning

Manytimes in our life, nature flags its power ,our inferiority and future's uncertainity. i have written this poem in remembrance to one of beloved teacher whose sudden death had stirred my heart with agony and distress.
What has happened to us,
A man who was in this rush,
Has slept a sound sleep,
Enjoying a eternal relief.
A wind of enlightment was blowing,
A plant of expectations was growing,
But soon, it was no more,
It become uncure sore

PURPOSE OF OUR LIFE

Oblivious to obvious way,

closing my eyes from enlightening ray,

I don't know ,where to pay

debt of my sorrows and gay.

Thoughts which makes me aware,

What is wrong and what is fair,

How to lease out,what you share,

Why to take care, just by prayer.

When I think what is our purpose,

Why there is always stimulus for every cause,

There is gap of time between every pause,

Are we not competiting to master of every lodge.

The purpose of birth is to know the death,

Some searches it by science and some by faith,

But we forget in our own trade,

Our goal, our aim everything gets fade.